its funny how you can always l always end up believing you all over again.

...

i dont think i ever crossed his mind.

he loves to argue.
born on the 14th.

i got nothing to confess to you.

THE MOTHERFUCKING DUMBEST THING TO BE SAID OF THE HISTORY OF NESSA'S FUCKING STUPIDITY!

is it you?

i want someone who can understand, when there is something wrong, we can talk it out and lets me realise where i went wrong.
i want someone who would know how to manage his time. i'm not asking for 24/7, just knowing that he's there would be enough for me.
i dont want presents, but something thats meaningful would be more than enough.
the best would be someone, who would tell me what he's feeling. i dont have to talk to him everyday. a random text would do.
i wont expect much, surprise me.
i wont ask for all your time, i dont want to rob you of your time with your friends/family or yourself. because personal time is important.
i want someone who would read comics with me, and chill at starbucks reading. there's no need for conversations between us. when this is ongoing ah.
i dont have to see him everyday. because i dont think i'll forget his face anytime soon. and besides, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
i dont want to be treated like a queen, just like an equal. i dont want to be the one who's always right. intellectual arguments are fine by me.

teach me how to be a stronger person.
teach me how to live life.
teach me how to kow i'm wrong.
teach me that i a can be independent.

teach me, love me and i'm yours.

its not the same without a gun.

so this past weekend, i've been going all over town to get my CNY clothes. so first off, i went to Far East. cause the clothes there were plenty and there were many shops i could bargain for. so my mum and i went to practically every shop i know that sells nice things.
there is officially one statement to describe town. ITS FOR SKINNY PEOPLE. i cant fucking find nothing there. even if i do try XL, i cant really fit into it cuase its kinda tight. i seriously dont believe in it. i mean, i'm not that fat right? to deprive me of cothes is really damn bad. i know its kind last min that i start buying CNY clothes just one week before it. and all the clothes there all are the same. and dont have my size.
this has been a bad week, almost flaring up multiple time at my mum.

so friday, after hopeless shopping, i finally got a red polka dot dress from FOX. yes, he would be so proud. and i have to rush home and get ready for dinner cause we had been shopping for about 6 hours non stop and found nothing. so we went to Bukit Timah for dinner at my favourite italian resturant. so, happy looking at pictures!








free roast pork from Luca((:








result of warm chocolate cakes.


mini cooper auntie.

i'm tired and sleepy.
one more week of school to go.

JUMPIN' JUMPIN'

1. put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. for each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
behind these hazel eyes- Kelly Clarkson.

true enough.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
cinderella- Tata Young.

i dont wanna be like cinderella.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
eyes watering- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

i said we're better off this way.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
jerk it out- the Caesars,

its easy, once you know how its done.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
i kissed a girl- Katy Perry.

soft skin, red lips.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
how to deal- Frankie J.

this is dumb.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
one two step- Ciara.

rock it, dont stop it.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
dreams- The Corrs.

thunder only happens when its raining.

WHAT IS 2+2?
lose control- Missy Elliot.

2+2 is 4.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
unfaithful- Rihanna

i'll kill him if he is.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
beat of my heart- Hilary Duff.

away, away!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
here we stand- Amber Pacific.

and then we never move.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
grown man- New Kids On The Block.

i'm not going to be a tranny.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
thks fr th mmrs- Fall Out Boy.

he tastes like you, only sweeter.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
all you wanted- Michelle Branch.

i dont think i was.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
fall for you- Secondhand Serenade.

one of the best to dance to with the love of your life.

OK!WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
piece of me- Britney Spears.

do you want a piece of me?

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
nine in the afternoon- Panic At The Disco.

your eyes are the size of the moon.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
church- T-Pain

erm...

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
love in this club- Usher.

it would be the best.

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
i'd lie- Taylor Swift.

i'd lie about dying.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
maneater- Nelly Furtado.

eating guys? cannibal!

THE DAY MY HEART SWINGS.WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
why cant i?- Liz Phair.

we're alrd wet and we're going to swimming.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
let there be love- Oasis.

there isnt enough love to go around.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
white lies- Paul Van Dyke ft Jessica Sutta.

i wanna marry jessica sutta!

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
boyfriend- Ashlee Simpson.

having a boyfriend? lets have girlfriends now!

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
5 mins to midnight- Boys Like Girls.

i'll know anout 9 hours from now.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
if all else fails- Matchbook Romance.

it wont fail.

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
why should i be sad?- Britney Spears.

yeah, why?

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
jumpin' jumpin'- Destiny's child.

erm. ok.

tagging:
nah.

i want to run away, because i dont want to face whats right in front of me. so, there lies a fork in the road. its either this or that.

anyway, telling people what goes on behind closed doors, you ought to shoot yourself.
spreading rumors. you should cut off you own dick and feed it to the dogs.

they say that confessions are good. i dont know now.
i feel scared just thinking about it.
i dont want nor need this nervousness.
i thought things would be better.
you'd think, after since they've been going out. feelings might be there right?
i really dont know.
this is so full uncertainties.
i have nothing to say because i dont know what to say.

hurt and empty.

i woke up too early thanks to bernard.
and i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
boohoo for me.
so i'm just going to keep it all in, not explode and be a happy little girl.
pictures at facebook.

quote from sher;
So much for friends...

quote from nessa;
totally agreed.


i just can't believe you guys.

i should probably tell myself to stop being so gullible. and stop being such an idiot to the point that i almost got cheated. i should concentrate on things that are important like my studies and chapter 8.

i'm not going to fall for this again.
neither am i going to want to go through this again.
i'm not going to be stupid, not anymore.

OMFGG MOMENT.

let me just go kill meself as to how happy i am at this moment.

i'm in a list making mood. so these are the things i want to do this year sonce i'm like 5 days late for my new year post. considering that i was working like a mad pig on new years eve. so here it goes.

• go tanning and sauna. to get rid of all the water retention in my body. who knows? i might have just lost like 5kg or something. and i know you want to try it too.
• after i go tanning and sauna and shit. its time to go learn a new sport. yeah. tennis maybe? then i can ask my ugly best friend to go try it out with me.
  
• be more ladylike. so it means i have to stop slouching. have better posture. and its just an excuse to buy more clothes. HAHA.
• eat only at foodcourts. which means. no more cravings for TCC and Fish&Co anymore. cause i need to save up money for overseas trips.
• actually getting to Bangkok/Bintan/Krabi. the last two to be with Samantha. HAHA.
  
• taking care of my health. in every aspect.
• stop shortchanging myself.
• be there for my friends more this year.
  

so pay should come soon. and i'm going to eat only at food courts. in attempt to save money. there are many things i need to buy.

• berms.
• hairbands.
• dresses.
• stocking/leggings.
• more ladylke stuff.
  

i'm bored. and maybe i'll edit the damn thing later.
i need to check the meaning of fling.

by many people apparently. OKGO!

1. grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4, and type it out:
01 January to February 09

2. stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What did you manage to touch?
the wall?

3. what was the last thing you watched on TV?
some chinese movie where the girl just refuses to die.

4. without looking at a clock, guess the current time.
08.39am

5. now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
08.36am

6. with the exception of the computer what can you hear?
the ice machine.

7. when did you last step outside, and what were you doing?
getting out of my house to go to work?

8. before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my own blog.

9. what are you wearing?
my work uniform.

10. did you dream last night?
i didn't think i dreamt?

11. when did you last laugh?
while doing this survey.

12. what is on the walls of the room you are in?
alot of things? cause my job involves alot of paper.

13. seen anything weird lately?
CS's leg.

14. what do you think of this quiz?
*yawns*

15. what was the last film you saw?
Hairspray.

16. if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
a diamond ring for my mum. buy all of Forever21 and Topshop and Bugis Street.

17. tell me something about you that I don’t know.
i take about 3 hours to be fully awake.

18. if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change?
that Paris Hilton/George Bush dies. Less stupidity in the world.

19. do you like to dance?
LOVES IT.

20. presuming that your first child is a girl, what name would you give her?
Dana

21. presuming that your first child is a boy, what name would you give him?
Shayden.

22. would you ever consider living abroad?
depends?

23. list 6 other people who must also complete this quiz and post it on their blogs:
anyone.

900th post,
i have too much to write but too little time.

but this week has been a good week until school is about to start.
lets start asking pasti to come to school soon.
on monday would be a good idea((:

need to sleep.
i have to work tmr, and go for kaira's fight.
maybe flipbook making in the process as well.

CHEERS!